Havent really added much recently, don't really know what I really want now. Work, those kind of hours are really not my cup of tea. It is true it can get exciting once in a while, but in the end, you know very well it is not what you wanted.


School has been going quite smooth, and probably because its the first few lessons, I totally hate chem, but i want to do well. Not because i'm competitive, but because alot is at stake. I really dont have the determination, and i really need to find a way to concentrate.


At the moment, i'm having a negotiation, and I dont know how this sounds to people, but I'm really really pissed at the moment, at this moment in time, 10 32 on the 4th of May. Not pissing all over my pants, but pissed off real bad.


Though I said I would try to stay away from writing about all the shit in my life, but I'd make this an acception. I don't know how other people do it, but I try to make time for everything, despite work, despite school I will try to make some time for those who means something to me. May it be a simple dinner, lunch, or even taking leave and all. Cause to me, these people are more important than school and work.

I'm not saying that its not important, it is very important, infact, i give it top priority, but its these people that makes life better, no matter how you look at things, you cant always be happy. Of course, unless you have no expectations of any sort, nothing in life that you're trying to change.


I'm tired too, but I just keep going at it, I'm persistent. Maybe a lack of discipline, and a lack of interest for most things probably. At this point, my irritating/anger has gone down a little bit. And I guess I made a mistake somewhere, whoever who came into my mind when i felt irritated isn't the person to turn to, infact, by smsing that person, i'm irritating that person too. I'm freaking selfish seriously.



Oh well, i hope things will make a turn for the better, i'll probably turn in early today, I hate growing up, the older you get, the more unhappy things become.